Hi! My antidepressant happy ending story is that it wasn’t antidepressants that I needed, it was mood stabilizers. Obviously idk anything about what you’re going through, but I had some serious depression that refused to be treated for years and it turned out (after a lot of work trying again and again to figure out what exactly was wrong working with doctors and psychiatrists) I have bipolar, which is actually worsened by ssris. I’m not trying to tell you you’re bipolar, but I want to offer you a little hope by saying that there are other ways to combat this. There is always hope and there is always a way to get better. Your life is profoundly meaningful and you deserve to be happy, even if it takes a lot of searching to get to that point. If nothing is working, ask about bipolar, research other mental health issues with similar symptoms, explore new ways to cope, run with your hope and don’t stop. You deserve happiness, you deserve contentedness, you deserve peace. Keep fighting and do not under any circumstances give up on yourself! I promise that if you keep looking and learning and trying it WILL get better. I could’ve been saved years of pain if someone had introduced me to the possibility that it wasn’t actually depression, so I hope that by saying this I can save you a little time or at least give you hope. You can always get better, you’re never a lost cause, and you are loved. You have no idea who I am but I sincerely enjoy your presence and believe you make the world a better place. I see a wonderful future for you!!! Keep trying 💜